Some crazy stuff's going on in my life right now and i'd rather not go into specifics. I need help and music answered my call, i have to decide what to do with my life, or if i should do anything at all. I don't know anymore, i don't know what to do. i felt myself turning into old me, how i used to be before i started questioning myself, my life and basically anything and everything. i like to think of myself before my new personally as "blind" blind as in i did'nt question, i just did. i could'nt see what i see now, and even now i don't know what i'm looking at. humans have tendancy to think the universe was tailor made for them. well i think that's far from it. there's so much we don't know, what's gonna happen when i go my greatst fear is that i'll just dissapear. maybe thatwon't be so bad, but i would'nt know becuase i would'nt be.and to my friend on the other side of the country, tell me it's not over, just puased,tell me it's not a "never" just a "not right now".